Things, both good and bad show up in our life as they are supposed to. They show up with the divine timing of the universe and when something unfavorable shows up it may be a way for us to go deeper. To look at things differently, to be more real. The real point is that every moment is valuable. That people will always come and go. That this body, this earth, these material things around us are not permanent. We must cherish every person, good or bad in our life to give us the lessons that we need. The information that we need to take with us on our journey. To thank them. To hug them and tell them we love them when they leave, because we never know when we may see them again. If we can just let go of the pain in our hearts. If we can just get real with ourselves and see how precious this life really is, then we can begin to see the love that is at the very depth of everyone.
If we can just take our own sledgehammers to our own walls, knock them down and start over. Start at the beginning. When there were no walls to begin with. I am sick of my walls. I am sick and tired of working so hard on pushing everyone away. It is a lot of work. It is so much easier to just be yourself. To just be loving and open. It hurts less. It changes others more and allows them to be more open. I am tired of walls. I am tired of sledgehammers. I am tired of only seeing cracks of sunlight peeking in, when I want the whole sun to shine upon me and those around me. A crack of sunlight can change darkness into morning, but the light of the whole sun can wake up a planet. It is time to start waking up. It is time to stop just letting the cracks of sun in and start allowing it all to shine through. I am tired. I want to wake up. I want others to wake up around me. I feel like no matter how much sleep I get I am still tired. Like I am in an eternal dream world where life is a bit dead around me. People walking like zombies in their sleep induced states, not fully aware of what they are doing to each other, to the planet to their own psyches. This is the dream. This is what we need to wake up from.