Let Love Win Over Fear

As I was driving home from a client's house today, I was flipping stations on the radio, I stopped when I heard about the tragedy in Connecticut.  I was surprised that I made myself stop and listen, instead of doing what I normally do, which is switch the channel quickly, to shield myself in a way from the terrible happenings of this world.  I am not one for current events, I never watch the news, I sometimes prefer to live in my little bubble thinking that terrible things do not happen.  But the truth is that they do and we are all connected and we all feel what happens to each other.  I stopped and listened as the father of one of the 6 year old children named Emily that was shot talked.  I cried as I listened to him, feeling his pain.  He was so strong as he talked about how amazing of a spirit his daughter had and how kind and generous she was with everyone.  I cried for him and for her.  

We accept that there is suffering and pain in this world.  As adults we have all suffered and felt pain in our own lives.  Yet when tragedy is done to children, we begin to question things.  We begin to think that the world is going down the tubes, that there are no good humans left, that we need to stay inside our bubbles, inside our houses and not let our children out of our sight.  I can agree to this.  My initial reaction to this tragedy was to think oh no, people are loosing it, it is getting scary out there, I don't want to leave the house.  This was not my higher self talking, this was my ego that wants to protect me talking.  But my higher self knows that during this highly charged time, we are being challenged to go into fear.  

Today I overheard a friend of a friend saying very seriously that she thinks the world is ending.  

When something this terrible happens, how could we not go into fear?  Our hearts are breaking for these families and these children.  While I am not saying we put aside our aching hearts, or forget that something this tragic just happened, I am saying let's let love win over the fear.  We are in such transitional times, where what we think about is happening instantly.  If we stay in fear, fear will win and I can't say what will happen to our world then.

If we can accept that our hearts are broken and know that when your heart breaks you come out on the other side stronger than before, with more determination and a deeper sense of gratitude we can begin to go into love.  If we can find the place within us that is strong and a fighter, we can have the grace to go into love and have the ability to let love win.  We have the ability to live in Heaven on Earth here in our future if we let love win. 

It is not a time to go into fear.  Keep doing what you normally do, keep living your life as you normally live it.  Don't let the negativity that is out there bog you down.  Go inside your heart.  Go silent.  Go within and find the answers that you are searching for during this painful time.  But don't let fear win.  Let's stay strong and stay in love through this most intensely charged week up until December 21st.  Where the light can be downloaded much stronger into us and onto the planet.  Remember to get still this week and meditate as often as possible.  Let yourself be open to these new energies that have not graced this planet for over 26,000 years!  Stay open!

Stay open to what is coming up for you.  Don't numb it, or push it down.  Stand up and fight for love.  Find it within you and then share it with others.  Let's all let love win.

Love, Light and Happy Holidays,

Erin

What I know now...

What I know now is nothing.  I return back into the nothingness and sit peacefully with it.  Allowing it to have its way with me.  The earth and all things come from the nothingness, so if I can sit and be with it, miracles can and will happen.

I no longer fuss, or worry over the nothingness.  I accept it and allow it to be.  I don't know what will happen.  We don't know what will happen and we can either be ok with that, or try to fight it by worrying and causing drama and lose.

What I do know is that everyone is breaking down around me.  We are all breaking down in some way or another.  Things that used to excite us no longer do, we are changing.  Including myself, although I seem to be at peace with it for once in my life.  What I do know is we are all being asked to go deeper, dig deeper into ourselves.  What we once could push down and hide from in ourselves keeps revealing itself louder and louder now.  What I do know is there is no more hiding from the parts of ourselves that are closed up, or closed off.  From the parts of ourselves where we don't love ourselves and expect more for ourselves.  From the parts of ourselves where we think we don't deserve better than the fear, doubt, resistance, negativity that we've been putting up with up until now.

What I do know is that if we can sit through those deep seated feelings and really get to the bottom of where they come from we can move past them.  What I do know is that those "parts" move out a lot faster than they used to if we are willing to acknowledge them.  We don't have to keep going back and rehashing them over and over again.

What I do know is the chains and walls on our heart that we think are keeping us safe are coming off easily.  Letting us be more open and more loving.  Love is stronger than fear and love is what wants to move through us now.  What I do know is that it is becoming easier to step from fear into joy, if we allow it.

What I do know is the time is now and you are exactly where you are supposed to be in this moment.

What I do know is that after the chaos there is peace and there is peace in the chaos too.

What I do know is that if you haven't went through the dark, you can't see the light.

What I do know is we are being asked to reclaim our personal power and connect to our very essence and just be ourselves.  What I do know is that our very essence is limitless, changeless and all-knowing.

What I do know is that when we do that our life will change and miracles will happen.

What I do know is that we will find that re-connection to our true essence in the stillness and the nothingness.  When we get still and listen.

What I do know is there is great joy and love available to us always.

Much love and light,

Erin

What Have YOU Been Putting Off?

I stare at the blank page of white before me.  The task that I have at hand seems daunting and always has.  Yet that voice from deep down inside of me whispers...write anyway.  Ok, I yell back drinking my coffee and eating Milk Duds.  Something I never, ever do, but seems to be my way of coping with the anxiety I have created from my daunting task.  Maybe it’s just daunting because I keep saying it is.  Maybe the dark cloud I feel myself in can be removed with a single type of the keys.  I have been wanting to write a book for at least 11 years now and I believe maybe even longer.  For the longest time the excuse was, who will want to read what I have to say?  What makes me think I have anything of value to talk about?   Or, the kicker I am not good enough to do that.  

I have found every possible excuse why not to do what I have so dreamed of doing.  If even just for myself!  Writing has been a way of expressing myself and a way of releasing stress.  I was always afraid of what people would have to say about my writing, afraid I would hurt someone I love if my book got published, afraid that I would FAIL!  I have finally, by the grace of God, gotten to a place where I don’t care any more.  Even if the book goes out to 5 people and it is because I Gave it to them, I don’t care.  There comes a time in your creative life where you just have to say this is what I am going to do and I am going to do it for me and no one else and if other people like it and get something out of it, then that is a huge bonus.  

For so long I was worried about writing to my audience.  I would be writing and then stop and think oh, no what if my audience doesn’t like that, or this.  Which would then leave me starring at my computer screen at a blank sheet after deleting everything I had just put down.  There are many people out there who have studied what you need to do to get your book published, to know your audience and sell millions of copies.  You can sit and study all of that until you are blue in the face, but at the end of the day you probably still have not written your book, or even a page of it.  Maybe after you have written one book, then you can start studying and know the facts for how to get it out there and yes, you should have an outline and a general idea of what you are doing.  

But my advice, more to myself than anyone else, is just to write your book for you.  Write what you want to write on the first draft and don’t think about anyone else.  Just write.  Because then you will get some where.  Then you will begin to believe in yourself and what you have to say and then you will begin to put your book together.  And who knows, maybe no one will read it, or maybe you will be a best-seller, but at least at the end of the day you can say I did what I wanted to do for ME.  And really what is more important than that!?!  

Monthly Manifesting Sessions...

When was the last time you stopped what you were doing and used your imagination?  I am pretty sure that a majority of people would say not since they were 10.  We are told as children to stop imagining things, we are socially programmed in school to think in different ways then our inherent way of imagining.  We are programmed by our families, our culture, our school, our government and even our tv.  We are taught to fit in, study hard, obey rules and people of authority.  But never along the way did someone keep saying focus on your imagination.

Well I am asking you to imagine again.  To use that childlike part of you that dreams and visualizes things.  The subconscious mind does not know the difference between a real or an IMAGINED EVENT!  I can't stress that enough!  So our minds think that what we imagine is real, so we might as well be using that bit of knowledge to our advantage.  This is how the Law of Attraction works.  This is how what we think becomes our reality!  So if you are imagining not having any money to do what you want, not having the love of your life with you, not having friends, etc. so shall your life be.  IF you can begin to imagine your life as you would like it to be and begin to assume the feeling that it is already that way.....you begin to change your life!

This is not some woo woo crazy, hippie talk....I have seen this work in my own life and in the life of my clients.  It is physics.  It is a law.  Your THOUGHTS CREATE YOUR REALITY!  If you change your thoughts, you change your life.  That is all there is to it.  

"Everything is energy.  That's all there is to it.  Match the frequency of the reality that you want and you cannot help but get that reality.  It can be no other way.  This is not philosophy.  This is physics."  Albert Einstein

Join me Friday, Oct. 26 from 7-8:30 pm for the first Monthly Manifesting Sessions.  Where we come together as two or more gathered to use our imaginations to create the life we have always wanted.  I will be leading us through a very powerful visualization that opens us up to allowing the imagination to work and then sets those imaginings into our energetic field.  This work has been so transformational in my life and in the life of many clients.  Please rsvp and tell a friend.  I am so excited to share this with you!

If Love Could Talk, What Would It Say?

What are the fears of really letting go and being in a relationship?  Something I have been wanting and as the time approaches for me to go and see someone very special every fear imaginable begins to surface.  I realize I have never fully let go in a relationship.  I realize that I shut down, nearly every time I thought there was even the slightest chance of getting hurt.  I would shut down and push people away.  I have never felt safe.  I have never felt safe to fully be myself, safe to really be with someone with full abandon, safe to fully let go with someone.  I have never felt safe my whole life because I did not grow up in an environment where I felt safe.  I carried that feeling of protecting myself, of creating a tough wall around me into my adult life and it showed up in my relationships.  In my first couple of relationships I was able to let go and feel safe, but any heartbreak just added fuel to my already protective fire.  Then the walls started being built with very thick substances.  I blamed the men I dated thinking they were the one’s with the problem, they couldn’t commit, weren’t consistent, were emotionally unavailable.  Maybe they were, but we are always attracting our mirror.  I was the one that was all of those things and more.  Mostly just afraid.  I didn’t know how to feel safe around anyone else.  It never proved to work out well for me.  Now that I am on the edge of jumping in again, those fears have resurfaced to show their ugly heads.  I choose to live life fearlessly, so I say hello to them and acknowledge them, not allowing them to go back down into the depths of me for hiding and then reappearing again later.  

There are so many differences between love and fear.  A lot of us would run if they were feeling the feelings that I have felt these few days.  There are so many reasons to not jump into the unknown, because it is very scary.  I have always had a love affair with the unknown, seeing it as a pool of treasures to explore.  Each time I have jumped in, I have come up with the best gem.  But it is still scary.  Walking up to the edge of that unknown pool and sticking your big toe in and saying “Oooo, it feels different this time, oooo, I don’t know.  This could be dangerous.”  But I am ready to jump in again.  Knowing that there is something waiting for me down in it’s depths.  Fear would run now.  Fear would say don’t do that, don’t go there.  Love says it’s all going to work out well, now come here with open arms.  

I wondered what love looks like?  Is love joyful all the time?  Does love ever get tired?  Are there levels to love, or is it always the same?  What happens when it fades away?  How is that even possible?  If love could talk to you what would it say?  

A few years ago I wrote a poem that seems fitting for this piece.  It’s called Roses.

I walk by the roses, red, white and pink.  I am reminded.

You are there.  You ask, “Do you know what has the highest vibrational frequency?”

The rose.

You take me to the rose garden.

But there are no roses, it is winter.

You hold me anyway and we laugh into the nothingness.

The velvetness of your skin soothes my pain.

Your smile melts away my distrust.

In your arms I am protected from all harm.

Lifetimes pass by my eyes.

Darkness.

Light.

In this moment the world does not exist.

I see through to your soul, I know it well.

I see the goodness.

But the roses are no where to be found.

When I find them, I see you.

I thought you had left for good.

But you like the roses went away for a while.  Hibernation.  Fear.

You came back blossoming open even more.  

I feel safe again for a moment.

The last petal falls to the ground and you are gone.    

I choose love now.  Love over fear.  I can’t live in fear any more.  So I thank the fears for their lessons, for their awakenings in me.  I step confidently into the light of love.  Knowing that it is the only way to live now.  There can not be any more fear, not now at this pivotal time with this consciousness.  I choose to not shut down any more to anyone.  I choose to be open and loving.  Let's choose love.  Love in every moment.  Love over fear.  Let's all jump...

Love and light,

Erin

The Wild Goddess Within...

I wrote this a year ago while I was living in Thailand.  I experienced such a tumultuous time while teaching at Paradise the resort that I worked at.  It was this strange place that I feel I was sucked into, a bit like a vortex and while I was there it was like I was in a tornado the whole time.  Everything happened very fast there and I felt so much transformation happened for me.  The people that came to stay at the resort were very interesting too.  One woman in particular that stayed with us shifted me and awakened me to more of myself.  She is a mystery and I have no idea where she is now.  

Shortly before I wrote this I had this dreadful feeling, it almost felt like I was about to die.  As strange as it may sound, I went up to the top of this hill where we had our most expensive suite.  No one was staying in it at the time.  It had the most incredible view of the whole resort, ocean and the most amazing mountainous rocks that jet out of the water all over the place.  I laid down by the pool and I really felt like I was dying.  I literally thought I was going to die then and there and I remember looking up and seeing the view and thinking I am ok with that, if this is how it is supposed to be, so be it.  What was really happening is that a part of me was dying.  The old part that was holding on to old junk, old beliefs, old ways of being maybe even lifetimes of old.  Something in me was letting go of its hold on me.  Energetically something had to shift to allow me to be ready for what is to come.  I felt different after and I immediately went to my computer and started writing.  I couldn't type fast enough for what was coming out.  My brain and my fingers were not matching up and this is what I wrote.  

I feel this piece represents us all as we begin to move into this new consciousness.  We have been staying small when there is a part of us that is so powerful and vast that we could do and be anything.  I feel it is a call to the wild part of us that burns with knowing.  I hope you enjoy, as we all begin to shift from the masculine energy we have been living in for centuries to welcoming the goddess energy back onto the planet.... 

I want to awaken the millions of universes inside of me.  I want to awaken the knowledge from lifetimes ago that is stored in my cells.  The knowing of ancient wisdom, of goddesses, of traditions, of magic.  I want to awaken that part of me that has every answer to every question without a shadow of a doubt.  I want to awaken each and every planet, universe, star, tree, flower and animal that rests inside my heart.  I want to awaken each part to allow for the shift to take hold of me, spinning me around dizzily until I fall over in bliss from this knowing.  It is all there.  I am now ready to awaken it.  The void, the light both coming together in swiftness that I fall into getting mixed up in its magic.  There is no good or bad, there is only what is.  I want to awaken the light body within.  The Pure Light that is inside of me and let it, and only it, radiate out.  I want to awaken the ancient voice calling from my depths.  Its bellows so loud now I can no longer resist. 

 The voice of life times of suffering and pain rages within me and I want to shout at the wind, the ocean, the trees just to get it all out.  Letting Mother Earth take over now.  There is a fire that is swirling inside my chest.  There is a burning that is seething through my skin and I can’t contain it.  There is a wild goddess that is screaming inside of me, she is tired of not being heard.  There are millions of lifetimes of suffering inside my chest and they are all pounding at my heart, yearning to be released.  I can’t contain it any longer.  The yearning, the burning the sensations of love, hate, anger, frustration, bliss, joy, curdling at my throat.  It’s wanting so much to spill over from within.  This is the shift I have been waiting for.  This is the movement that was becoming me.  This is the longing I have felt all my life.  This is what I always wanted but never knew.  This moment, this one right here.  It burns through my veins, they pulse something I have never felt in my life.  The blood rushing through me like never before.  The wild cry from within bursting through my veins with a force of a million horses.  I feel like I could fly at any moment.  Leave this planet and sail toward the stars.  

The wild goddess inside my chest is screaming.  She is beating at my chest.  I feel like it could explode.  She has been scorned so many times and now that she is awake, she is powerful.  I have never felt a power like this.  The small frame of my body feels like it cannot hold this kind of power from within.  Will my body break from the power that it holds inside?  Will I be able to withstand this wielding, this aching, this force that is pushing through my veins screaming from all its torture?  I feel it pushing from within.  I feel my body expanding, the boundaries that are my physical body moving farther away.  How will it come out?  How will it show itself now?  I feel that goddess.  She is me there is no difference.  Yet her yearning is screaming now.  My ears ring, my throat burns with her fever, my blood still courses through my veins at speeds I am not sure are good for one human body.  I feel it boiling.  I feel it seething.  I feel that longing and that beautiful peace that comes with the moments after.  After the rage is let out.  After the storm settles.  After the ice of frozen lifetimes has thawed.  There is a peace that withstands time.  She is here.  She is ready for what is to come.  She is a warrior beyond all time.  I am her. 

5 Reasons to Practice Kundalini Yoga

Kunalini yoga is the yoga of awareness. Kundalini Yoga is the supreme technology to awaken your awareness and take you into your infinite self.  It is a natural unfolding of your own nature.  Kundalini means awareness, it is the technology of human consciousness. Normally this awareness is sleeping in you and you experience your own capacity and reality in a limited way. It truly is a workout for the mind, body and soul.

Kundalini has been one of the catalyst in transforming my life. I thought there was something wrong with me after my first class.  At the end of every class we sing the “Long Time Sun Song.”  

May the Long Time Sun Shine Upon You

May All Love Surround You 

And May The Pure Light Within You, Guide Your Way On.

I cried while reciting this for the first time.  I thought I was loosing it, but really it was my higher self recognizing the truth.  I knew in that moment that I had found something very special.

I saw results very quickly as I began to have less and less anxiety, feel more present and calm.  I found myself not reacting to things in ways that I used to and was a lot more kind to myself.  Kundalini was the only thing that got me through the darkest time in my life, by giving me a meditation and breathing work to focus on.  Kundalini yoga feeds the soul and I leave uplifted every time I attend, or teach a class. 

Kundalini Yoga teaches you how to gain a strong immune system, vital glands, a strong nervous system and good circulation.  All of which will make you look and feel younger!  

Kundalini Yoga teaches you how to calm your mind, develop your intuition to recognize what is real and important to you, so that you can begin to make decisions based on your highest self and feel good about them. Instead of the confusion and strife people are facing due to not knowing what it is that they want in their life.  

Kundalini Yoga clears the subconscious mind and all of the things that can get stuck there. It helps you to move on from attachments that are keeping you stuck to things in your “past.” If the subconscious mind does not get cleared out it sits behind the conscious mind and can spoil the image of human life by repeating experiences which are already in the past, but which are recorded in the subconscious mind. 

In Kundalini Yoga there is a meditation for almost anything you can think of, even one to rid you of addictions. Meditation has been scientifically proven to change your brain and nervous system.  

In Kundalini Yoga we focus at our Third Eye points frequently, with the eyes closed, rolling the eyes up and in to look at this point. This is where the pituitary gland resides, which controls our levels of serotonin in the brain. Just by doing rolling the eyes up to look there increases serotonin, which makes you happy!

Yogi Bhajan, who brought Kundalini Yoga to the west said, “If you don’t go within, you’ll go without.”

I believe we are in a very special time for ourselves and our planet to really step into our highest self.  We do that by letting go of things that are no longer serving us like fears, doubts and anxieties.  Kundalini yoga is one tool that can help you do that, by giving you the space to go inside yourself.  We can heal ourselves and by doing so we heal those around us.

Much love and light,

Erin